I dreamed that life was joy. I woke to find that life is service. I discovered that service is joy.

"We are aware that you feel isolated, indeed, to an extreme, where you are not only isolated from the normal companionship that so many entities upon planet Earth find very easy and almost unnoticeable to achieve, but also that feeling of isolation even from parts of yourself."

"This isolation is a natural and normal part of the personality shell experienced by an entity who has awakened within the dream of Earth to the knowledge that there is a great deal more in heaven and Earth than has been dreamt of by most peoples’ philosophies. Some of those who have these feelings are called wanderers. Their isolation comes from the experience of coming from higher densities where the situation as regards being aware of the inner thoughts and feelings of the self and other selves is extremely open compared with the guarded and veiled realizations and expressions of unity available to those upon planet Earth in third density. Others, being Earth natives and not being from higher densities, nevertheless having awakened, feel similarly isolated."

"Whether or not you have a past that is involved with relationships with those in higher densities, your experience at this time is typical of what this instrument has often called “the wanderer’s blues.” Once having awakened, one cannot go back to sleep. The good news for such entities is that they are not permanently locked in such isolation, nor are they alone."

"We find that your experience at this time is that which occurs when an entity who is attempting to accelerate her rate of evolution of mind, body and spirit reaches a critical point in her journey. Indeed, my dear, you have been at this critical point for some time but you have not known how to move forward because of a very understandable linkage of spiritual understanding with cultural understanding."

"The culture of which you are a part identifies moving forward with action. In order to progress, there needs to be some marker that indicates that action has been taken and has been taken successfully. However, you are not attempting to work in the world of space/time. You are not attempting to change anything in the physical world. Your prey lies in the land of the metaphysical and is part of the time/space continuum. You are attempting to work in the inner worlds where instead of the illusion of matter you are dealing directly with energy, and instead of physical things you are working with thoughts. This is the realm of mystery, paradox and spirituality. And it is a world that you know very well. However, the nature of movement forward in this particular world is other than you have suspected."

"We would wish to point out to you that the dedication, the love, and the courage that you have shown in being persistently and determinedly concerned to fulfill your mission and your purpose within this incarnation is quite commendable. That it has inadvertently placed you in a situation where your energy system is somewhat off-balance is simply part of that which you are taking in as catalyst, and that which you will work out in time and with love as part of your spiritual journey upon planet Earth during this incarnation."

"You come into the outer courtyard of your own heart when you are ready at last to face your shadow self. Whatever you have not yet recognized or developed within your full personality, meets you in the courtyard of the open heart. It is here that you will find your shadow self. In order to enter the inner sanctum of your own heart, you must do the work of greeting, understanding, accepting, feeling compassion for, and eventually redeeming every bit of undeveloped light that is a part of yourself."

"You have been a judge instead of a redeemer to yourself. This is acceptable. Again, this is not a mistake. However, your faculty of judgment, honed brilliantly as it is, is not that all-compassionate and all-loving faculty that waits for you in the open heart. Therefore, judgment itself, as a part of your personality, needs to be called into that outer courtyard of the open heart. Perhaps you may create for yourself a conversation with this judge that is a portion of your personality."

"There are times when a love of detail and the desire to find the bottom line and solve every problem do not serve you well. When you are attempting to love, forgive and come into a deeper understanding of yourself, such rationalization may well be a very blunt instrument to use in comparison to your faculties of faith and intuition."

"Can you see the absolute fidelity to doing the very best that you can? Can you see the purity of your intentions and the beauty of the colors of your character, your wit, your sense of humor, and all of those things that make you unique? Look now for the judgment. Can you see in this judgment the very human desire to come into a position of control? That is not actually a portion of the heart. This is a subtle point and we would allow you to ponder it. Thusly, we would encourage you to suspend all judgment and to gaze at yourself, blessed only by your native intuition."

"There is a resistance to breaking through into the open heart. When that judgment does not want to let go, simply say, “Well, perhaps judgment is not appropriate here. Perhaps there is an end to the decimation and the evaluation of a critical mind.” In your desire to move ahead with this higher-chakra work, you have unknowingly placed a good deal of pressure on yourself. The end result of this has been a kind of locking up of the energy body. The way to relax it, and to allow it to move as it will to find a more natural balance, is to open yourself up to a new level of belief in yourself and a new level of faith that all is well."

"From a higher point of view, we would suggest to you in a humble way, realizing that you may not agree with us, that you already have accomplished that which you wish to accomplish, but that you have not yet given yourself permission to enjoy it."

"We would suggest that all is truly well."

--Q'uo

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